Vietnam adoption

Eating Cake with the kids! 

Happy Birthday Hon!  It is Rich's birthday and I hope it was a good one!  Hes getting up there in age......... just kidding, I will always love that you are older than me!!  For his Birthday we went to Red Robin after Kadens football game and then to a movie.  We saw Game Plan with "The Rock" and it was actually really cute, I was surprised that I liked it.  During the previews I saw 2 movies that I thought looked really good.  One is called Marcian Child, a movie about a little boy in Im guessing Foster Care and a man that wants to adopt him.... it looked very emotional and good.  Then a very cute movie I think called Enchanted or something like that, about a Princess that falls into a hole which takes her to the real world and then other characters follow her here.  Madison was so excited!! 

Anyways during all of that (the movie) we sat in the 3rd row down, we usually sit at the very top but there were already people there so fine!  Well a grown man ended up sitting right behind me and he kicked my chair the WHOLE movie like constant tapping I had to keep looking back to get him to stop, then he would grab the back of my chair when he was leaning forward........ UMMM hello there is a unwritten rule that says no touching someone elses chair especially if you are an adult!!  Well then about 30 minutes before the movie is over there is a lot of noise and a splashing noise coming from the top row, sounded like a drink spilling and so the kids behind us start taking off.... ends up someone PUKED!!  EWWWW right!  Then I started to smell it and realize what had happened and I knew I would have to leave cuz I am a dry heever with smells but thankfully the staff brought some cleaning supplies and started cleaning so I could smell the cleaner!  I thought I was going to loose it if you know what I mean.

So moral of the story theaters SUCK!  Home is better OOO + the kid sitting next to me appearently had gas for the first 30 minutes.  So unless the movie is super good and I just have to see it I will wait for it to be on DVD.  Because at home knowbody is kicking my seat and I dont have to worry about strangers puking on me, if there is a bad smell at least its my families bad smell and not some strangers AND my drinks dont cost $15 for 3.  O and if I have to pee I can pause!! LOL  OO I sound like such a whiner but really being a bit of a germ freak at the theater is NOT fun!

Ok good news!  The HS is officially done!  Our part has been done for almost a month (yesss stressful waiting) but there were things that we have been waiting on to be finished and yaa its done!!  I talked to both my agencies today and everyone is a GO!  So now our HS and a few other things are headed to the CIS for approval, Ive been told this should only take about a week and then it all gets shipped off for the I-171H which I cant explain what that is I get lost with all of this stuff.  But I cant tell you how excited I am to finally say its done finally its done, I feel like we are half way there maybe even more that half?? 

I have adoption brain Im almost certain I am not the only one, I can relate it to pregnancy brain.  But... it is driving me crazy just crazy.  I cant sleep I am always thinking about the baby about the paper work about the things that need to be done the things OTHER people need to get done and it is driving me crazy.  I have done the shopping and the cleaning and the blanket making BUT it is NOT distracting me..... Actually the shopping helps hehehe but I am stopping the shopping until my referal because I dont want to keep buying the wrong size clothes or wrong season.  So Im stuck and obsessing over every little thing.   Im not alone in this crazy brain right??  I even have crazy pregnancy dreams and Im not pregnant.  Blogs are a help to me I love to read everyone elses blogs and to see the little faces of what my little one may look like seems to be a comfort to me.  I have found a new obsession YOUTUBE I go and I watch G & R's on YOUTUBE and I get a little (or a lot) teary watching, Madison loves watching too.  If Im  on the computer she will say I want to watch the babies so we search and find a new one to watch!

So hurray HS and hopefully I will be saying hello to a good nights sleep.  I do have to say even though Im totally complaining I already know that every tear heartache and hour of stress is all worth it and I also keep hearing in my head that the timing is all right and so with that I will try to stop complaining and just be greatful!

Ok I love to get packages I love to see the UPS or FEDEX man at my door step I also love opening the mailbox and seeing packages in there!  Well today that is what happened!  Not 1 not 2 but 3 packages!!!! What a fun day especially when it is something for the baby.  So here is what we got...

The Cutest diaper bag ever!

A matching bag for Maddie!

A pair of Vietnamese dolls soo fun

And some cute headbands and a hat

 So that is my good time, you can see how excited Maddie was too!  She wore the head band already they are a bit big we will see if they fit baby when she gets here!

Ok how cute is that!  I just finished this blanket for the baby.  It is super soft and cuddly!  I found this gorgeous fabric on Ebay and I knew I had to have it.  And so Saturday I went and found the pink fuzzy stuff and some yarn and trim.  I just finished and I just love it.  I like to think Im crafty but Im sloppy crafty. But I dont care this is sooo cute! (Just dont look at the hems! 

ok how cute is that?? LOVE IT!

Sorry I hope I dont sound snotty and braggy but Im way excited!

Im feeling so impatient, Im feeling so out of control.  When Im told two days and those 2 days turn into 3 weeks I start feeling like a joke is being played on me, and its NOT funny.  I know the HS is done but it hasnt been sent to me for aproval.  Come on please email give me some good news.  Im getting anxious because Im reading that waiting times are getting longer.  Longer is not good longer is longer right Longer is TORTURE!! 

My BFF had her baby today!  He is the sweetest little guy.  He is handsome and cute and sweet and so tiny.  Im so excited to get some of that for practice!  Im hoping to sneak a whole lot of him!

I have to say sitting there in the hospital I was a little sad realizing I will never have that newness ever again, I wont ever have that icky new poop or the tiniest diapers, I wont ever have that constant sleeping baby in my arms that I just love and enjoy so much.   I will hopefully have still a quite tiny little girl that may sleep through the night and hopefully wont have those really disgusting poo's that make you wonder, when did you eat tar?  LOL sorry gross factor!

Holding him made me yearn that much more for my little one.  And to know that I am still so far away and the longer my stuff takes the longer my wait gets is very hard.  Having faith comes into play here, and I am trying to constantly remind myself that when the time is right I will have her in my arms.  THAT IS SOOO HARD!  Not knowing when is so hard.  But I will say my prayers and I will read my scriptures and I will remember that the plan in play right now is not mine and so I will try hard not to be so impatient.

         Here is a close up of the shirts

Our family has been so blessed with good great wonderful friends.  It it wasnt for our close friends and my sister I dont know if we would have gone through with this.  Adoption is HARD it is something we could only do with the support of friends and family.  And we are so grateful!  Christi, a good friend of mine (who was one of our inspirations turning us to Vietnam and was adopted herself from Vietnam, and part of Operation baby lift..... hope she doesnt mind me putting that in here) anyways she came by the other day with a gift bag full of these wonderful shirts.  We each got one and the baby gets a bib!! 

They say: Love + Family = Adoption

How great is that, Kaden was so excited he wore his to school the next day and was finally he said, able to try to explain what we are doing... I was so proud that he was so proud! 

We are so blessed to have good friends and family.  We have already had a few close friends offer up their homes to our kids while we travel, we will be taking them up on this!!!  (Unless we win the lottery)  So I thank you friends for your support and letting me lean on you while we go through this journey.  THANKS!!